tw: anxiety, panic attack
a huge hand enveloping my chest
a tightness that never goes away
I can’t rest.
lungs? are you there?
how do I know if I’m putting in enough air?
and even knowing I won’t feel it in my despair,
I try to feel my heartbeat with my bare hands
I need to calm down, I can’t
I take a chance
and then I freak out.
now I feel it in my chest, in my ears, in my mouth
I need air! I need a doctor! I need help!
symptoms of a disaster everywhere
I’m dying, and now I know I care
brace myself as I can’t feel my arms
try to walk as my legs fail me
I know I’m simply breathing too much
but the siren in my head, it won’t stop
I feel alarmed.
and I know it’s happened before,
and I know it’s not the last time,
and I know I’ll get better if I don’t think about it anymore
don’t just tell me I’m fine.